Doubts

Is GOD there? I used to strongly believe, but now i am lost. I don't even know where to begin in my search. I feel empty, my heart is cold. I feel sadness beyond belief and circumstance.

I have a near perfect life a perfect supportive husband, a beautiful house, two great dogs. What would i ever have reason to feel sad and empty?

I sense that he is there. actually i cant sense him at all.

To start i will ask my christian Friends their thoughts on finding God.

I have ordered some books with advice. I am going to try every way i can think of to see if he is still there, or has he given up on me who, has given up on him so many times.

I need to not just find God, but i need to feel him alive and strong in my heart. Any questions, answers and comments, i am open to. Please let me know about your thoughts and beliefs for any religion. I would love info on Buddhism.